Jun 10
23
At a loss for Words
Last week I talked about how much I talk. There is rarely a time when I don’t have something to say but as I was filming a video to put on YouTube yesterday I was at a loss for words. The pressure of the camera was enough to send the familiar disabling fear to my mind as I attempted to keep my cool. So, I practiced a couple of times and figured out how to overcome my camera shyness and complete the video.
I really don’t know why I get so nervous. I don’t understand why I feel fearful when I know someone is watching me, but I do. It’s so funny because I love to talk, but if you ask me to show you my skills or to explain something that involves my application of knowledge on the spot I freeze. I think that this is because I am constantly afraid of being wrong. I am afraid of saying something incorrectly or finding out that something I have thought was true for the longest of time is really false. I am afraid that someone will reject me and shoot me down just so that they could be “right”. I am probably afraid of these things because these things have happened to me repeatedly over time.
As a result of my experience I make an effort to not over correct people when I am talking to them. I can only wish that they would give me the same courteously. Something else I have learned is that when other people do this to me it doesn’t have to offend me. I can choose to take lightly what they are saying and get over it. So this experience, like every other experience has the potential to do, has taught me a couple of different things.
I can only hope that now that I am aware of these things about myself I can make a resolve to work on my nervousness. When have you experienced something like this?
