Dec 09
9
School is ending NOW?
What’s in my heart today, and seems like it has been every other day in the last few weeks is the unstoppable end of this semester. When I think about it I feel stressed, fearful and sometimes excited. I keep having to remind myself that next semester will be just as good, if not better than this one, for that’s what I am fearful about. I keep telling myself that finals will be ok as long as I study, for that’s what I’m stressed about…And every time I feel excited I let my heart fill with that sensational feeling that wonderful things will be in the near future just as I enjoy them now.
This semester has been great, probably the best I’ve had in college or ever actually. I have made so many friends and grown as a person. This growth might be hard to see, but I see it. I have spent hours upon hours doing what I love most, and hours and hours studying things that are difficult to understand. I’ve eaten lunch and average of 66 times (thankfully only once in the cafeteria), gone to three massive collections of the students called Convocation, attended advising meetings, every sports game possible, review sessions, and the occasional random meetings thrown into the mix of my everyday schedule. I’ve started out almost every day with a bowl of cereal, taken lots of tests/quizzes and managed to somehow write at least 1 sentence in my journal every day of class. I’ve lifted weights, carried books, climbed stairs, written assignments, and dozens of other random, yet strenuous, activities.
How I’ve done all this, I’m not always sure. College is hard stuff. Yet at this point, I am sad to see this semester end. It’s a time of change…huge change for me, which seems horrible to deal with. These classes I’ve finally gotten the hang of are ending and my class mates leaving with them. Will I see most of them in January? Yes, however they won’t be sitting in the same place they sit now and we will all be working toward understanding different things. It’s hard for me to think about this but I still think about it.
I’m not quite sure how to calm the anxiety that comes with the close of the semester but am doing my best to figure it out. Keeping a positive attitude and being optimistic about the future helps. The winter holidays also give a greater source of comfort to the weary soul. So the advice I give to myself and any of you who might be facing similar situations is to keep your head high in this difficult transitioning time. One thing I have come to know is that even when the worries seem to pile up they truly can be dismissed for with time all things work out. So for me, who doesn’t really want next week to come, I take hope in the fact that even things that look grim from a distance can turn into the greatest experiences of our lives when we get closer. Those things can even become something hard for us to leave. Truly though, moving forward is the best way for us to grow.
How will you empower yourself to move forward and grow today?
